I'm Back!我回来了！

I'm back to Penang from the National Service Program that last for 66 days in Kem Rimba Taqwa, Sik, Kedah.
Such a wonderful experience i had there.
I met lots of people.
They are different from people i know back in my village.
But they are same in some aspect.
I found out that i am such a quite person in a brand new environment. I just stay quite and listen to what they say, i still keep on laughing and smiling, but less talking.

My mind are opened.
"the more you know the more you know you don't know."
I found something in through this program, something that i had been searching for a long time, something that had full filled my heart, thank God for this blessing and grace.

I know a lot of people from different school, different places, different backgrounds. There are: rabbit, hamster, panda, frog, elephant, currents,kj lim, apple, mango, banana(this is all their nicknames) and a lot a lot a lot of people. I found people that share same personalities with me, I met quite a number of Conan Fans too. Hehe.....

The life in kem are tiring.
We wake up at six, Muslims at 5am. Have damn physical training at 6.30am. Then a rushing breakfast at 7.40pm. Have boring classes at 8.30am for the whole morning. After that, have our lunch at 12.30pm. then rest and have a bath or wash our clothes. 2.15pm we will start our afternoon session activities such as marching, kraf hutan, tali tinggi, pembelajaran peta and so on. 4.30pm, our afternoon tea. then it is time for us to have excercise, mostly i go jogging with Michell. 6pm, our dinner(really early dinner for me because i have my dinner at nine in home). 7pm to 9pm, we non Muslims are not allowed to go anywhere except Dewan Makan. We have to wait there until 9pm, the Muslims will go into surau to pray and hear ceramah. During this two hours, Christians will gather together and have activities like praying, worshiping and sharing. That is Christians Fellowship. every Tuesday and Friday are open days for non-Christian to join them. On that days we will play games.
This repeating life is boring but i learned a lot. My knowledge grows day by day.my mind was opened wider and wider everyday. I have started to open out my heart and learn how to share. Thank God.

What is different?
My skin tone is different--->darker
My weight is different--->lower(^@^)
My mind is different--->opened
My........a lot are different...lol

I've learned:
tolerance, discipline, sharing, caring, open minded, be polite, keep on learning, lower yourself, honest to yourself, respecting others.There is nothing worth in the world that can make us sad or unhappy,God had prepared better things for us uphead, we should be fulfilled and thankful for what we had now,for God had blessed us with His grace.

EXCEPT the torture we get in the program, National Service is still a good thing! YEAH! :D

九月十七日

今天天气真凉爽~
天阴阴的。
对阴天的感觉还好，不出门想待在家时就觉得很舒服
想出门的话就比较担心（但是坐车去不会被雨淋的地方就非常ok！）
所以我算是喜欢阴天的吧，这种有点阳光的阴天

今天预考第一天，考了华语
华语还算有把握，但是昨熬夜读的名句没出。
新竹高于旧竹枝，全凭老干为扶持
就agak agak的写出它的含义，不懂对不对。

接下来也要好好加油！
今晚就读KM吧！
明天读。。。。
明天早上再想吧！！

减肥减肥~

超重两公斤了，该减肥了~！

控制饮食
早餐=麦片+水果
午餐=妈煮什么吃什么（通常是饭+菜+蛋or肉）
晚餐=饭+汤+菜
多喝水水~！

运动
有空就去跑步二十分钟吧

睡眠
早睡早起身体好~

好啦，最难的part，少吃零食~

饭后不直接喝水
睡前四小时不吃东西
摆脱压力~~

坚持下去~减掉2.5kg~！！

好高骛远，不自量力，对！我就是！

昨天读了学校的校讯，做了个测试
你在一个汪洋大海上，有东西海面在出现，你认为是什么？
有四个选择：我选了鲸鱼
结果是:个性好妄想，有好高骛远而不切实际之处，因而又是不自量力，一直陷入困境

哇，很准！
我就是爱想，爱幻想，又有点自视过高，自大的倾向。
给自己定的目标总是很高
但是，我给自己定高的目标我就誓必要做到
因为白羊座的我是很好胜滴，怎么能输给自己呢？？
不能！！

哇！！干劲十足阿！！
最近又做了件傻事，平时不拜拜的我的的确确“临时抱佛脚”啦！
我烧香拜神，请神明保佑我学习顺利~
哈哈哈~~~平时不读书，不听课，不做功课
还剩擦不多两个月的时间都不懂怎么死了，所以只好连这招都用上了哈哈哈
90多天的时间，该怎么用？
三科科学要读，国文华文英文的写作能力要提升，成千的数学练习要做
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..
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恩，我行的!（妈常对我说的）
虽然没什么自信，师长们或许觉得我没希望
但我还是相信自己或许做不到一百分，但也能有85分！
或许目标未必能完成，但我绝对会尽力！
即使或许已经迟了，但总好过放弃，未来再后悔！

恩！加油！！
我要很努力很努力很努力！！
我要把困境转成仙境！（爆发中XD）
我现在就切实际的努努力力！

更新啦~~随写~~

超级久的久的久的

没来更新这东西了

原因：忘了这东西，也没什么想写，因为不太想让人知道我的事，嘻嘻嘻

最后，那下巴被咬得同学提起这东西，才想到要来写些什么

其实嘛，最近还挺烦的

问题一下子涌起来

这些问题呢，说是问题又不是问题，并非不得不去解决

但是这些问题会困扰我

所以我就选择了顺其自然，不理那么多

毕竟既来之则安之，谁也不知道会有什么进展。不用理那么多

也没什么动静，不用去想太多，如果对方出招，我就见招拆招！！

哈哈哈，虽然酱说好像在打仗，但其实不是啦。。。

只是如果真要我解决这些问题，我还真不会，

因为这是需要时间考虑的问题。而且真实性有待‘考察’。

yes or no 是很难答的！

现在我该做的，是拼了老命的读书！！

我有理想！但诺不再努力，就没有能力完成理想！

不能再这样继续下去了！！加油！

集中精神读书！感谢SPM给我思想的寄托~XD

books, musics, milk...clear my soul

i have start to read books recently,

but mostly fantasy stories by Diana Wynne Jones,

hahaha, i'm still young.

reading help to calm my soul...

let me have no free to think of others, think of nonsence.

Recently, I am addicted to Olivia Ong's You and Me.

Nice song. Love it.

....Feel the warmth, that only summer breezes can bring...

...I wish for this to be true for you and me....

some lyrics that always swim into my brain.

since a month ago, my father decided to let me drink milk.

Fresh Hot Milk.

He said it help my sleep quality and cure my insomnia.

I love milk too, it helps me getting fairer skin.

hahaha...

these three things, help me.

clear my mind.

clear my soul.

help me build my innerself.

save me from nonsense idea.

let me not think of others, not think of nonsense.

Books, Music, Milk.....

我有梦想

我有个学长，他说过他有24个梦想。

我不输他，我也有很多梦想！

老师

辅导员

心理医生

作家

医生

护士

老板娘

厨师

贤妻良母XD

幼稚园院长

校长

律师

导演

编辑

旅行家

电脑工程师

电玩工程师

game master

服装设计

理发师（我的头发都自己来的）

房屋设计

室内设计

搞笑艺人XDXD

懒惰虫

小丑

也差不多24个。不赖吧！

随想~想什么写什么

今天在班上拍了生活照，和大家一起。

好开心~！朋友们都和乐融融~~

各种各样的pose都有，

还有外星人版断背山XD

超搞笑的

我自己的脸哪，还是圆圆的~像月亮酱。。。哈哈哈

直到今天我才真的感受到我就要毕业了，

许多事都已经是最后一次了，就要离开学校，

过了今年，就没有中学生活了。

在迎临重要的战争后（spm），就要脱下那蓝裙白衣的战袍。

大家都已开始为战争作准备。

而我啊，要等把少狮会的事处理好，才能专心准备会考。

五年前的我和五年后现在的我，

其实没多大改变，还是迷迷糊糊，天真直接（这是遗传！我全家人都酱，我严重点罢了！）

只是对许多事的看法有所改变，想的东西也不一样了。

开始懂得分轻重，也知道朋友的可贵。

不仅如此，我也在中学的最后一年，回归华乐团~（其实是为了义气奋身一跃！）

结果学会了柳琴这玩意儿，我好喜欢这玩意儿~

在生活里慢半拍的我，合奏时总是快三拍，和以前学琴时没两样，拍子烂！XD

我也开始学会独立，

自己洗衣服，偶尔做做家务，要去哪儿要自己去，

慢慢的不依赖别人。

最近这几天，肠胃好多了，没什么毛病，不错不错。哈哈哈

从小到大，肠胃都不好，消化常常不良，希望从现在开始有得改善！

Shoes!

This year's Christmas is fabulous! Know why?

Cuz i went shopping and bought my first pumps!

now i got two pumps, one is a gift from my sis, and another is my own Christmas present!

ah, christmas...

this year my dad bought me an air conditioner...wuuuh~its cold~~

as Malaysian, i'm used to hot and wet weather...i can't stand cold~~~

this is my sis's gift

this is my new pumps!!^^

i'm so happy~~!

谁要请我？？

要重新找过假期工
谁要请我？不做夜班....


还有，要去KL，
怕老姐问我的事，
不是怕让她知道
只是怕它晕倒而已
虽然没有进展，我也不知道将来会不会有进展
剧情如何发展，不懂，唉.......

又是钱

哟~我看

为了要去KL

我不能在这个星期六去看2012了...

明明好期待的说....

因为妈不想我花钱

真的要找份兼职了

花店不行，我看药行要人吗？

哈哈

好想打工............

每次都是这样，想做的事都要为了钱而受阻滞。

钱真的没什么，但没了钱······我就头痛了····

是我太现实了吗？

朋友，请原谅我就是这样的女生

唉.......
有的时候我就是这样龟毛
唉.......不是我把钱看得很重
但是我很缺钱用嘛....唉
如果我是富家千金的话肯定不会那样的

所幸的是，我有能体谅我的好朋友们！
爱死你们哟~！！！

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加油！

sungguh MALANG

I ya....
sungguh malang hari ni................
haiz.......................................
haIZ.......................
HAIZ..............................................................................................
why so unlucky................?
the test in facebook says i oni have 18% of luck today.................
tats why i am so unlucky...........?..........so malang................?
really wish to rub off todays memory..............
GOD! let my memory of 28.9.2009 get lost!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我的blog没问题啦~~~

开我的BLOG的时候不要开多多TAB，不然它会生更多TAB，没完没了。。。=。=
when open my blog, pls dun open too many things in a new tab, or nor it will "born" lots of tab...lots....=.=

U are a stuipid stupid

U are a stupid stupid
we all are stupid stupid
the world is going stupid
humans are being stupid
lets be a stupid stupid...

For Malaysians

A clip by Yasmin Ahmad

A Comment by a viewer(not me):
妈妈说：“ 我们这中人在这里没有机会的。。。” 代表妈妈心里存在着种族主义植。。。

儿子说：“我这里有朋友。。。” 而从他对那友族女孩的表现里看得出他并没对友族女孩有偏见。。。

想想如果母亲没有讲：“你跟那个马来婆谈这样久做什么？！” 那男孩会因为5仙不卖巧克力给那女孩吗？

从片尾男孩把巧克力放下，旁边放着收回来的2零吉。其实他并不在乎，不计较那5仙。。。

整个短片想表达的只是：“年轻人的脑子里根本没有所谓的种族主义，只是上一代把种族主义传承给下一代而已。。。”

Original post at 15Malaysia--- http://15malaysia.com/films/chocolate/

闷死了~BORING~!!!

闷死了~又一直下雨，向出去都不行~
这假期闷死了！！！

BORING~and it is raining these day~
this holiday is so BORING!!!

一杯水--姓庄的

喂~~姓庄的
欠你一杯水哦！
别忘记！

带我的灵魂去买鞋吧~~~

带我的灵魂去买鞋吧~~~
我要去shopping!!
今晚的梦是鞋子~~